Since we were born, most have been taught that love is conditioned. And not because that’s what our parents or role models wanted in life, but because they also received the same love. In adulthood, we notice that we face anxiety and have difficulties in relationships.
I’m not ashamed to admit I’ve been dealing with anxiety for some time. My grandparents raised me, and I didn’t feel any form of love from my parents, or at least I didn’t recognize it. I identified it as separation anxiety only after I finished studying psychology.
At the age of 24, I am learning to love myself, and I am learning to believe in myself. But I always struggle with the voices in my head, which often hinder me. I have so many ideas in my head, so many desires, and plans, but fear holds me in place. Fear of not being judged, fear of being left alone. Sometimes these worries affect my lifestyle. I retreat to my corner and stay in my mind.
Do you know the feeling when your mind makes too much noise?
I think we all know him, one way or another. When there is so much noise in the mind and ideas over ideas appear, thoughts over thoughts. And sometimes, all you want is peace.
I’m writing! Writing helps me free myself from any thought and see more clearly. I found a way to “take refuge”. I learned to do things on my own, without asking for help. I learned to enjoy a morning coffee or a good book on the beach alone. I knew that you have to fall to get even more vital in life.
My dear, I want you to know that no matter how hard it is for you, no matter how lost you feel, everything is fleeting. You have been taught that “you will not succeed”, “you are fat”, “you are incapable”, “money makes difficult”, and the list goes on.
I want you to look in the mirror and see how wonderful you are, look how far you have come and how much you have achieved. Enjoy every moment you live, dream, and don’t let anyone tell you what you are capable of or not. I believe in every soul on this earth. I believe in you. But please, don’t let the people around you dictate what life should be like. Live by your inner voice and be proud when you do this, be proud because you are unique!