Uncensored thoughts
If you fall, get up and start over!
I dared to publish my thoughts uncensored. Every question, every criticism brought to me by my mind. I want to be vulnerable to the world. I want to be honest. I want to emphasize that we are not perfect. Happiness or sadness is a fleeting emotion, just as everything is transient.
“Why? Why do I feel this feeling? This emotion that I have no words to describe. What do I need to learn? What can I do to get rid of expectations? How do I learn to love myself unconditionally? Why do I claim to be loved in this way, even if I can’t afford it? How easy it sounds, how easy it seems, and how much work, pain, healing, and hope are behind it.
Why don’t I enjoy the moments when I’m with myself more? Why do I feel the constant need to have someone by my side? Why am I afraid in the end? Why do I feel so insecure when I’m alone when I should feel whole?
I didn’t keep my word again. I stepped on my soul again to thank the people around me. Why can’t I be happy right now? Why do I sometimes get into these dark thoughts and fail to get rid of them?
I want to inspire the world, help people, and offer hope to lost souls. But what if I can’t help myself? Who am I fooling?”